Rendezvous with the Destiny

When I look back at my life, I realise the importance of existence in today's world. Just as I mean to say "existence", many scenes from past gets pictured in front of me as 'ghost from past'. These ghostly images makes their presence felt , astoundingly.They try to haunt me but somehow I keep my existence alive ; not by praying to god everytime but fighting to the situations.
How much I have taken from life is not important but how much I have given to life,interestingly. There were situations in past I didn't made right decision,clearly they always make me sad and questions on my ability to stand in front. By the time, I had chance to make my mind,situation already had lost from my hand,leaving me no choice than to accept the situation.
Many times, I dare to ask destiny what it has store for me, only struggle? Or something else......
Sadly,that something else hasn't revealed yet, may be that would be unfolded by order of destiny.

Hope, one beautiful name given for searching our own destiny.But I don't hope as I don't like to tie down by bounds of destiny.I want freedom from destiny,want to make my decisions on my own.But shockingly,tough situation make me slave of destiny,obeying all orders of her.
Inside in me,someone try to break free but doesn't succeed but shows one beautiful oasis in the life.I gets unsettled and try to search it, but it still no sign of life!